Its been a long time between funny family stories. Unfortunately
This is not one of them either…..life has just been so busy….too busy for funny family togetherness it seems. I hope to remedy this soon…..we have my son’s birthday coming up and Miss Nearly Independents Grad show …and my mum is visiting…..all good reasons for some quality family time! Thank goodness…….I’ve been feeling a little bit discombobulated of late what with menopause and all the work and responsible family commitments that have been getting in the way of pure indulgence! I’ve been feeling my age I believe, which is just not the thing. Questioning my journey, exploring my purpose and letting go of my old roles whilst striving to discover new ones that fit. You know, Mum, yes; but necessary carer, no….wife, yes; but romantic interest, too tired….good friend, yes, but exciting companion, no time….energetic adventurer…in the head yes, but in reality dragging a spare tire…..slowly……
I am looking forward to the summit of summer too with its longer days ( which we’ve just begun) and beckoning ocean and picnics on the beach and late evening swims. I think I am ready for some chill time, where I remember to service not only my physical health, but my mental health. Where I make time to read a good book with some kind of continuity. Where I go out with my husband for a leisurely and chatty dinner. Where I watch some mindless TV with the family and make silly and often judgemental comments about it just because…..
And of course as I said earlier I am looking forward to funny family togetherness…playing charades with the kids, barbequing on the verandah, card games that linger into the long warm nights of summer, belly laughing and seeing the sparkle in my children’s eyes!
Its been a full year….trips to Adelaide…reconnecting with Mike’s family….saying goodbye to his Dad…..My son’s Burns….My youngest daughters’ Glandular Fever….full on Menopause…Miss Nearly Independent’s final Uni Year and attendant dramas….extended family illnesses and accidents and so on…..
Moving into the final two months of the year I feel transformed in many ways and grateful to have survived it all. The greatest triumph for me has been the sense of letting go…to outworn issues, old skeletons, angers and delusions….getting older may make you a little grey around the edges and a little less well defined and more softly rounded…but it also makes you more sharp and edgy about your true potentials, your real desires and your priorities….no more bull and no more putting up with same from others…..yippee!!!
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