Waking up in the darkness, a cold bitterness still hanging in the air and jumping out of bed with purpose...putting on the heater, putting on the kettle, warming milk and just as the sun peeps over the horizon waking up those who need to go to work or school. Reminders and last minute irons, coffee, signing school notes...finding funds in the deep recesses of the coin purse... feeding the pets and taking the dog (whose dog???) for a morning walk...kissing everyone goodbye and giving support, inspiration, advice, food and love to take them into their day...cleaning the brekky chaos, running the vacuum, hanging out wet towels left lying on the floor, checking the internet and any books in the cupboard for homework needs in preparation for later, paying the bills, doing the budget, returning DVDs...Shopping, cooking, baking, and making lunch for hubby...beds to make and mess to ignore!...washing on the line washing off the line...de-fluffing the school uniform for tomorrow...organise birthday presents...check the diary for appointments... worm the dog, ( get some of own work done if time...)greeting those home from school, being open to conversation, listening, hugging, helping, testing, home-working, just being around....nagging, delegating, sharing fairly...making welcome, making loved...calling those far away...phone conversations with sometimes tears and sometimes celebration and both needing finite attention...worry... sending packages...laughing...greeting those home from work...patience and non-judgement, more listening...cooking dinner...reminders and timetables...encouragement and yet more listening...pocket money and defining chores...rules and punishment...compassion and staying strong...understanding, cosy nights and TV or walks on the beach and philosophy...arguing...feeling bold anger and trying to be gentle...feeling soft and weak whilst making oneself strong and definite...guiding, looking within, hoping...worrying...long nights waiting, trusting...letting go and taking back and knowing which to do when... always keeping your arms and your heart open...( and if you are lucky sleep)...waking up with the darkness...
This then is Mother’s day....and all of it is what keeps us going, makes us alive, both thrills and terrifies us and most all of surround us with the wholeness that is loving and being loved....
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